Aeroplane Inside My Heart.

I don't follow the rules. I make mistake. I am flawed. Cause i can't go against my heart.

I'm not an angel, not yet a devil.

Side track:

A man needs a woman behind; but woman needs a man beside.

So, should a man go in front or beside?

Haha... such an annoying question.

Side side track:

This is what i get from the trip back to KL. I think my blood must be too sweet, or even the mosquitoes in KL miss me. ;p

Reunion.

I took a trip back to KL during the weekends, again. Yea again. This time is for my brother who came back from China. Well, i can actually come out with 100 reasons to go back KL. Lol... ;p


Picture we took at a very nice steamboat restaurant, this is supposed to send to my parents at China. I like it so much. Notice the one at the left, i think he looks a bit like Ah Beng from China, no? Shit, only 3 months at China my lovely brother already become like this. I can't imagine...

10 hours of bus for 48 hours is definitely worth it.

Be Kind.

I saw this behind my apartment the other day.

Rainbow does not necessarily come after the rain, we can create our own.




Left/right. Left/right. Left/right\wrong.

I don't know what to do.

Something To Think About.

IQ Test: How do we equally share 2 apples between 3 persons?

Cut into 3 pieces in exactly the same size? How?

Solution: Put the 2 apples into a blender, and divide the juice.

Or...


1 person gives up the apple.


How can we be perfectly fair, when everybody seems to be selfish. Yes, this is the real world we are living in. Decision has to be made, and it leads to sacrifices. It's merely how we can keep them to the minimum. When we achieve this, it's perfection.

I am selfish, i want a happy ending.
A happy ending where nobody gets hurt.


When nobody gets hurt, nobody is treated unfairly, nobody sacrifices...

I'm left with nobody.



p/s. Happy Birthday to Jiejie. I love her so so much. ;p

.LostConfusedGuilty.

I had a very bad dream last night.

Argghh... Am I the murderer?

Healed.

But scars are there. Not as remembrance.

It's a reminder, for not repeating the same mistake.

Ich wieder verlasse nicht.

My Beer Session...*Sip

Though i didn't go to the Octoberfest, I'm still able to try on the traditional German draught beer in Singapore, at this very nice German Restaurant in Vivo called Brotzeit. The aroma is so strong till I can smell it from far. So...tigger finally tried the purest extract of malt ;p
It was so pure that my body became so warm after drinking.


..Some very nice German food

Too nice till we finished all.

Gelato: hazelnut, vanilla ad pistachio. Tempting, no? I wonder why they don't serve green tea gelato.

The place is nice





Come find me in Singapore, I'll bring you there, Liebe. ;p

Time.

Time forgives

Time forgets

Time heals

Time flies

Time proves

Time strengthens

Time fermented

Time will tell...

It's Raining Now.

When god takes away something from us, there's two possibilities:

He wanna replace it with a better ones.
He wanna punish us for not appreciating it.


So, accept what's lost...and appreciate what's still there.



Thanks for the one who has been there for me, and will always be there for me...







The long lost smell, heartbeat, warmth, and security.

And the stubble.





The rain now reminds me of those days...

Really, Am I That Bad?

Words can be a killing weapon. I never thought such words will come out from you...this time I don't cry anymore.

I just felt...

numb

speechless



They can be good, they can be evil. Cause they are great liar. It's going dramatic now. Who's the best actor? I really hope what you said is lie.Yet either way it hurts me so deeply. But then again, you don't care. I shall feel lucky, i know.


For I'm lied, betrayed.

I'm On My Way.

When thing is at its worst, I come to realization that I shouldn't hold it too strong.

Take a step backward.


At least...

my tigger family is with me.


Thanks for those who treated me badly, and those who care.


Papa mama is together happily now, i love them.

Emptiness.

In the process of seeking the truth
Who am I...and why
I feel myself sinking
Deeper and deeper
The more i struggle to get out
It's painful
I couldn't breath
I refuse to close my eyes
Refuse to live

Every tiny thing reminds me of you, us...
My bedsheet, pillow, tiggers, smell of secret wish...
Part of my life
Engraved inside me

And now you taking them back
Giving them to another person
It's supposed to be mine
It's meant to be
Always is...

How can you

You, me, us...
935 days
22440 hours
1346400 minutes
80784000 seconds


Smile


Laughter


Anger


Sadness


Tears

It's 1 Week.

Today, i start to feel better... or rather am i immune to all these?
All these things you do to hurt me, us, our 3 years of togetherness...
I must get over it.



Tigger loves papa, mama, jiejie, gogo, kelvin, roy roy.


Nothing's real, except family.


Thanks for those who care for me.

You don't see everything i do.

You don't bother.

我不难过。

又站在你家的门口
我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候
还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有
陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候
别再看着我
说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱
你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞
这会是我
最后的宽容

抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头
是非对错
就让它随风
忘了所有
过得比你快活
不要再说
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我

真正的解脱

我。

我要忘了他。
就像他把我忘了一样。。。
我们。
以后再也没有我们了。
是他亲手送走我们的。

我要捱过去。
真的很难过。


一个人。

埋葬。

2007年是我最难过的一年。家人，前途，他。我不敢闭上眼睛，一闭上就会想起他做的事情。看着他现在所做的一切，就好像我不曾存在过。竟然可以这样，这么快，一转身，不回头，不留恋，就这样。。。快得我来不及躲避，连反击的机会也没有。疑问，很多。然而现实更多，都是残忍的。一刀又一刀狠狠地插进来。我问自己：这三年来我到底是什么?

路：左边是足，右边是各。原来每个人到最后都各走各路。。。

所有的东西都会使我想到他。要忘记一个人，很难。这几天我是没有起伏的，仿佛不是活着似的。到底谁是谁？或者已经不重要吧。

姐姐，还好有她一直陪着我，陪我度过。

Leaving.

I must be tough, nothing can be any worse. It really hurts to discover all these after so long, i shouldn't get myself into it at the first place. Now who's who...and what's what. I doubt. It's going round and round, story never change, just the character. How funny, things you taught me but you never do. Doesn't matter at all anymore...it's gonna be history, a lesson. I wish you could get out of it one day, then you'll regret.


Goodbye.

Thank You.

Thank you for kicking me out, u made me learn. To realize that how stupid i used to be and that i should stop feeling pity for myself. Things you taught me, i never understand. Now i pick them up and practise them all at once. But question is do u practise them too ? Nothing matters anymore...

I feel so relief now. The air is fresher without you.

I wanna go through it.

I am clear and calm now. My tears are dried. My heart has stopped beating. Why still insist for explanations when i have all the answers in mind? I don't need all your lies. I don't wanna give you any more chances to rub salt on my wound. All your stupid excuses, i wonder if you think I'm stupid too to belief them. 1, 2,3... It's enough. I used to think that no matter what you do, as long as I'm the only one... But it's not the truth. The truth is you would never change.


When i cried myself all along the return journey, what were you doing instead? When i told you how much i love you and that i can't live without you, what's in your mind? When i asked you to hug me, who's in your mind actually? When i was waiting for you at home, what were you doing at the other side? No more, i don't need you to say or do anything. It's too late, meaningless. You will regret for what you do now. I curse you. I curse.

Why am i saying this?

I'm overloaded...i hate the return journey. Why humans are to be separated. If it is meant to be, then why god makes us together. You said i should be independent, but you don't know part of me is with you. All i need is you.