Till When Can We Gather Again?

Danny's leaving too...I'm a useless sister who could never communicate well with my brother. Yea true, the youngest daughter doesn't know what's happening in the family at all. Even during the crisis I'm the last one to realise it. Am i being too protective by my family or am i just too dumb to believe the fact that the sun will always shine? Nah, bad things will eventually happen to anyone anytime. Only 3 left in Malaysia now. 2.5 to be exact, I'm only considered half. Liew family is broken, I'm officially homeless. I miss those days when i go back home everybody gather in the house and make so much noise, i miss my mum's laughter. The house now is empty and cold, making me shiver every time i go back. The couch remains untouched, with some dust on it, and some cigarette ash on the floor. I think the fishes are crying too. The cross hanging on the wall doesn't seem to give much love to the house either.

Talked with mum in skype the other day. (Yea, nowadays i depend on this technology, which i think it's dumb sometimes to talk over the screen. Pathetic.) Mixture of feelings i saw from her face, the excitement to get to see her son again and the worries...Too, i realise she doesn't laugh like last time she used to anymore. I used to fantasize a lot bout snow when i was small, but now that i know it's not as good as i thought it would be. Ha, when people grow older they start to reveal more ugly side of the world and then forced to accept it and continue breathing...ain't it?

A reunion dinner without family members, a chinese new year with the freaking freezing weather in a foreign land plus some snow, how is it feels like.

And me, i don't wanna think bout myself.

Mengamuk.

School is here, but i haven't recovered from not-enough-holidays syndrome yet. =(

My timetable for this semester is killing me! Imagine i have three 8am lectures out of five days, nothing in between, and then lectures/labs from 2-8pm!! I can foresee myself being super antisocial this semester cause I'll definitely go back to sleep after the 8am lectures and wake up for lectures again then go back to freaking sleep again! And to add thing worse, out of the total 5 modules i take in this semester, 1 is non exam which is very hard to get good grade cause it's a language module, and another 3 is open book exams. Well 'open book' means students are allow to bring as many writing materials as they can into the exam hall (yes you can bring in the whole library if you want), but no it ain't a good news at all. Cause open book = damn freaking hard! Why? 1. This is NUS and the lecturers are not stupid so you will never find answers directly from the book. 2. You think you have enough time to find from the book since time is very limited for the exams? And thing will get worse if you're trying to be kiasu and bring the whole library in.

What else? 2 of the modules I'm taking dealt A LOT with maths! MATH. Does falling in love with an engineer gives me a little more sense on math? I hope so though i don't see any changes yet.

I have to freaking do well to pull up my CAP and get into the major i want. I'm soo gonna die soon. Wtf. I start to question myself why i do chemistry, in NUS some more. Except for those real smarty pants most of the people here will realise that they are not as smart as they thought once they get into NUS. I am a typical example.

I feel stupid. =(

My Love Letter =P

The Day You Left.

你走了。留下凌乱的房间，还有我凌乱的思绪。我一个人，回想着我们，一遍又一遍，复习着。如果可以，我想把我们的回忆化成纹身，烙在我的皮肤上。这样我就不会像三年前一样把它遗忘。

不会了，这一次。

They say I'm a bitch. But i don't care.

Hippie New Year!!

It's 2008! Which also means that holiday's coming to an end. I'm gonna stick back to the mundane routine. No more parties, no more lok-lok after parties, no more bak kut teh, no more williams, no more beer session, no more watching series, no more waking up late, no more shopping! ;((

All these aside, during the holidays, i...

Reunion-ed with my best friends

...and my party partners.

Watched the sunset with my love ones.

Attempted to climb the tree like a koala bear

...but failed.

Convinced my bf who is acrophobia to take a ride on the very scary cable car with me.

Made our very own tang-yuen

...and fried rice. (Thou it turned out to be quite bad, lol.)

Went up the highlands just for the tea farm

...and the strawberry.

Went to Ipoh just for the chicken rice.

And wut else but drink?

21st birthday is over, holiday's over, now I'm 22. A weird feeling pops up telling me that time's gonna fly very fast once i blow 21 candles. 22 freaking years I've wasted, half my life, am still unsure what's in front, shit.

7 is my favourite number, and 2007 was definitely a year to remember. I made the very decision to leave my motherland and study in a strange country all alone, part of my family left the country to start everything all over again, and now when i go back home, my home ain't like a home anymore...If everyone has a weakest point, mine is family, i guess.


What else, when things were all against me, the person whom i trusted so much walked away from me. I nearly killed, by words. For the first time in my entire 21 years i see how sharp words can be. After that was lots and lots of thunder storm before the sunny day.



2008 Resolutions: Love my family more. Kill the distance. Lose weight? =P


Arrgghh...i need to freaking pull up my CAP too!!